One more day

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Fun Fact: I never thought I would live as long as I have. No, I didn’t have any childhood ailments or have fought any type of sickness that would take my life. It was just a little thing in the back of my mind that started when I was about 10.I didn’t live in fear of my imminent demise or anything like that.  Just a niggling in my brain that said, yeah you better do that because you might not have the chance again.

This might make me crazy, and I’ve never denied that. But it has caused me to live a lot more and try lots of things at a much younger age than some. But it has also caused me to love harder, let go easier, and enjoy more. Making your peace with the universe is rather simple when you feel like you are living on borrowed time.

I’m not saying that I have the best days every day. I actually have a terrible time with depression and anxiety, another post for another day. But dang, how amazing crazy is it the small things in this world?! For a big thing though, there is an invisible force that causes us to stay planted on the ground, but not pinned to it so we can still walk about. How awesome is that?! Our bodies have circulatory systems that are developed on a cellular level since conception. Pow! Mind blown!

Let me reel it back in. Gravity is incredible though! Being alive in general is a mysterious adventure, so why do so many people want to throw their days away like garbage? I’m not saying we should all quit our jobs and become hedonists, but do that if it feels right for you. But there are people that choose to be crappy people. I know a lot of them. I have no empathy or sympathy for addicts or assholes. I grew up around both and let me tell you, that’s no way to live. On a daily basis I deal with people that have manipulated and used all the people around them for their personal gain, and they don’t even have the decency to have anything to show for it. I find it disgusting. But we can’t change people. We can only cross our fingers and hope they see what they are doing to themselves and the world.

I really want to make my focus in this life to make it a better place. I don’t need my name written in archives for something great, but I want my legacy to be better than I just existed. Pushing yourself to be the better person in situations is hard. Making the right choices all the time is exhausting. I’m no angel and I’m not trying to pretend that I have always been a good person, but we can all start right this minute. Never know, maybe in the next 5 minutes we can change the world. A positive thought will lead to a positive action, and monkey see monkey do.

If you only had one more day, would you make it count? What would you do?

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New Years Eve Eve

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It’s almost that time. You know, to realize your short comings and create plans to devoid your life of all things that are making you the person you don’t want to be anymore. A lot of people use this time of year to reevaluate their existence.  That’s cool.

So the gyms are going to be packed, people are going to flood trader joe’s to buy “healthy” food, people are going to be posting inspirational things on the facebook, and it’s going to be great!

I’m going to be one of those people.

It’s gonna be fun! I promise! Well, it’s going to be as fun as I can make it as I am going to be active(tired), watching my carb intake(sad), and not drinking(hahaha). But really, it’s time for me to make some changes! I’m pretty excited about it because when I’m ready to do things, I can do them. But I have to be in the right mind set. I have had some personal issues, where my mind gets in the way of anything good that I try to accomplish. It’s gonna be alright!

But here’s the thing, if you don’t want to jump on the bandwagon, I’m not gonna try to drag you in. I don’t know how many times I see posts on FB that are like: don’t be fat, it’s gross. Eat like me and do what I do because my ways are better. Keep your judgey eyes to yourself and your backhanded comments to yourself, nobody needs that kind of shit.

So, if youre in or out, I don’t really care. For those of us looking forward to setting new goals and doing things we didn’t think we could, here’s a salute to you! We can do this! I think…

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Friends and Marriage, a quick thought

Did you know that 52% of adults 18 and over in the US are married?

Did you know that 94% of the US population will say that they have at least one close friend?

So let’s talk about this.

Having friends is weird. You somehow end up sharing a space in time with someone and decide: yep, I like this one. I’m gonna do stuff with them and spend part of my existence with them. It’s super creepy. With that being said, I like to take it a step further.

Have you ever had a friend that is more like a sibling? Or that friend that your family is kind of questioning your sexuality because you are two girls or two guys that are with each other all the time? Yep, I have one of those. But best friend is a term that I have for my posse. I run with a group of ladies that totals about 5, give or take who is being a bitch or has family commitments. But my friend that is extra special? That my friends, is my soul sister. She keeps me in line, tells me when a haircut choice is a poor choice, and we do everything together. We just picked each other decided we are going to like a lot of the same things, hate the same people, and wear pink together. Strange? You betcha.

Because I like to go big or go home, I’m also married. Now that is a bizarre thing. This goes beyond finding a random person in the world to hang out with and enjoy your existence. This is saying that I want to experience everything with you, share a dwelling, complete mundane tasks, see you naked; and the time line that is usually implied is forever! Are you serious? 52% of us are weird as shit. Not only do we want friends, but we want a constant companion to witness our eccentricity in all of its glory. Kids are a secondary symptom of the crazy, we will talk about those another time.

Just thinking about our choices to associate with people based on opinions, team affiliations, fandoms, etc. makes us all a little crazy. You have been walking around thinking you have everything together and there is no way you could be considered crazy, but then you have a friend. You weirdo.

Real Talk

How do you start out blogging and follow all the “blogger” rules when you just want to tell people to shove their rules up their ass?

I don’t have the time or patience to prescribe to internet rules. I will show my ass if I want and sometimes inspire. I don’t want to fool you my mind is a dark and scary place, I don’t recommend going in there alone.

I guess I could start out with an introduction, a little background information for you about me. Let’s get started!

My name is Eden. I’m 29, but I have a very old soul; I’m not sure how old but I could honestly be close to 100. I went to college, although I don’t use my degree in my day job. I work a lot, like any kind of weird job I can get my hands on.

I really enjoy food, friends, conversation, and nerdy things.

I am currently overweight, but I really like to go to the gym. But I really like tacos. So that is my 2016 goal is to get back on the fitness wagon, even though I’m more interested in fittin’ess whole pizza in my mouth.

I want to know all kinds of things, read all the books and live a life that will manage to not tear anything down in the process.